One of my worst fears as a mother, besides the one about doing the whole thing wrong and ruining my kids, is that I’m not documenting life the way I’m “supposed to.” The main reason for this fear is that I seem to do so much less than other moms I know in this area. I’m often at a school event and look around and think, “Oh, we were supposed to bring video cameras today?” I secretly hope that someday one of my children comes to me and says, “Mom, my friends’ parents have all saddled them with 20 heavy leatherbound scrapbooks. Thanks for almost always forgetting your camera.”
Perhaps I could borrow a page from my tweenage children’s playbook and say that it isn’t my fault. After all, I’ve never been able to document things without a baby or toddler on one arm — very hard to take decent pictures, right? Also, we’ve never bought a really fabulous camera, as you’ll see below.
I spent the last two mornings at our children’s school for celebrations of Chilean Independence Day. I wish you could have been there, because it was festive and lovely. And I wish Matt had been here and not in Brazil. And I wish the charger for our video camera wasn’t broken, because I would’ve at least tried to tape the dances our boys were in. (Each grade learned a poem, a song (in Spanish) and a folk dance — pretty impressive.) And I wish the batteries in my camera had been fresher. And I wish that I knew how to set my point-and-shoot to work for the conditions I was in. Or that I had a better camera. But none of those things would’ve mattered because I spent the entire time, two mornings in a row, chasing Thomas up and down the gymnasium. The boy will not be contained.
Here’s what I got:
Sam’s dances came from Easter Island, and some of the boys got to carry LIT tiki torches — super cool if you’re in 7th grade, don’t you think? Those last pictures definitely illustrate my frustration and inadequacy. I haven’t captured the event at all. The people sitting around me today were completely charmed by Thomas, though, including a bunch of rowdy teenage boys who couldn’t take their eyes off him. So that was fun.
What I’m wondering is, do I ask for a DSLR for Christmas, so I can feel even more guilty for not taking more pictures? But maybe the ones I do take will be better? Do I just need to learn the functions on my point and shoot better? And while I’m asking for advice, does anyone know what constitutes a proper gift for a Bat Mitzvah? Any ideas how I can get myself to stop eating so much chocolate? Does someone want to fly down here and help me pick out some patio furniture?